the meds are kickin' in....

don't know why i wrote that as a title, but i thought it sounded funny and we all know i need the funnies. spent my new years eve playing cribbage and drinking a few with amy and myron before i was off to bed early. my boss lady had scheduled me early the next morning...oh well, i survived.

thinking back on the year...it was a mixed bag...living in taiwan, traveling to thailand, father diagnosed with alzhimers, losing the family property, leaving my friends in taiwan, diagnosed with hypothyroidism and tmj, adopting two guinea piggies, a new great-niece and great-nephew, seeing cherry over thanksgiving, finding my birthparents, rejected by my birthmother, finding out the alleged father is not my father.....and on and on. those were a few that stood out to me.

ya know...it's a hard place to be wanted and unwanted by a family. i think the hardest thing i've had to deal with is losing part of my background. i took out my non-identifying biological info the other night and cut out any part about my bfather. now that it's been confirmed that he's not my bfather...why keep the info on a family that isn't part of my background? if you can envision a cut out paper figure of a person and rip that vertically in half....that's what i feel like right now. all i wanted was to know my roots...what a bloody mess all of this is for me.