ramblings and new family member....

i've been very tardy and rather lazy with the upkeep of my blog. i've been spending my time on facebook and other sites...but i can't seem to let this blog go for good. it was a great way to communicate with family and friends while in taiwan...and share cool and interesting photos. now that i'm back in wisconsin...i don't have anything really exotic to share....therein lies the reason why i've been such a slacker with my blog.

this month marks the 3 year time frame with seeking out my biological mother. the detective stated that legally i can't try and contact her again until it's been 3 years. would it surprise you that i'm thinking of trying again? not so much to try and communicate with her, but more to get the truth out of her. she still insisted that the man on the birth certificate was my father even though dna states that he wasn't the guy.

family...tough subject for many people. it has been over a year and a half since i last talked to my cousin. for a while there, i was wondering how he was doing and what he was doing...but now, the curiosity has faded for the most part. he probably feels the same way, but he's not the person that i thought he was...and the greedy/materialist person in him has taken over. i never thought he'd be more into money than anything else. i wouldn't have put it past him to have married for money too regardless of a prenup.

my closest friend took me into her home without asking for a dime...whereas my cousin wanted to charge me an arm and a leg. he later confessed that if he told me about charging me rent, he was afraid that i wouldn't move in. he wanted me in the area cuz of the relationship between me and his best friend. my friend has been part of my life for over 25 years. she acted more like family should than my cousin. i miss what once was before his wife showed up in the picture, but i'm indifferent to him and our former friendship now. i tried reaching out, the ball was in his court...he doesn't want to communicate...and that is the end of that...and i'm okay with it.

life has changed over the past couple of years...as it always does. i've lost a few friends and gained a few. it's hard to remain friends with people that have no backbone, morals, and psycho girlfriends/wives. but looking back...it's now easy to point out that they were never true friends in the first place.

i start teaching 7th/8th grade science this fall. i'm not nervous at all and looking forward to it. i betcha though when august rolls around, i'll start getting the case of the jitters. i am looking to relocate though...minnesota, utah, maybe arizona and certain parts of texas (texas pays REALLY well in most districts), and oregon. we'll see what happens.